Satsang in Tipperary, Ireland – Transcript


Stuart: You could say that the whole life is a karmic dilemma. It’s playing itself out. You have to see through it. It’s like the whole lineage of the human being goes way, way back, so to speak, to the beginning of where all these beliefs started. And so you inherit them in that seed. You know, an infant doesn’t know anything. It doesn’t even know who it is. It doesn’t know its body. It doesn’t even know it’s separate. That’s what I’m saying. It just is. And sometimes that separation is very early. It’s like falling from grace, very, very early. And then what? Ripped out of safety, what does that feel like?

Is it possible for any being not to go into the illusion and just remain in truth?

Stuart: Have you ever seen it?

Personally, no, I don’t think I have.

Stuart: You see, the absolute can’t see itself, can it? There’s nothing for it to see. It just is. But you, in form, in this state of being what we call human, can experience it. Isn’t that true?

Oh, silence, yeah, absolutely.

Stuart: So you can know it. That’s it. Otherwise, you wouldn’t be able to know who you were. If you’re in it totally, you don’t know what you are. You’re just space.

And as you were doing yesterday, it’s sort of like what do I keep, what’s the ultimate fear? What is it that I can’t let go of? To preserve, I need to preserve that.

Stuart: So let’s say fear was believed in very early. I’m trying to get back even before you could reason. Fear. I don’t know. I’m just scared. It’s just a feeling of terror. It’s terror. So the experience of the person is terror. Now, believed in, it makes your life always on the lookout, always scared, always conscious of danger and jeopardy and always on the alert, protection. But the shaking is underneath. The life reflects that belief, that visceral belief. I must protect. I’m afraid.

Letting go seems to be…

Stuart: But you’re not letting go, you see. You are not letting go. We are not making the person less afraid. We are catching that it’s what the person is coming from as the person. I am afraid. I’m scared to death. No matter what I do, the fear is first. I could even understand that I’m not the person, but I can’t talk myself out of the terror.

It doesn’t have to stay encapsulated.

Stuart: It doesn’t have to stay encapsulated, but it always is how you know yourself. It’s understood. You’ve delved into it. So you’re starting to see through it. But you as a person, cannot surgically remove it. Cause you know yourself as it from the time you realized you existed. So as you become more intelligent, you start to see the terror everywhere you look. Am I safe or not? Is this true or not? It’s always running the show.

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So how to stop the show?

Stuart: You notice the terror. That’s all. And you stay with it. And in the staying, you leave it.

You’re saying you feel the terror. That’s it. You stay with the feeling of it. Breathe into it, whatever you do.

Stuart: The terror wants you to overcome it. The terror wants you to take it as reality and fix it. Go ahead, fix it. You start, what do you do? You buy a pillow, you scream, you run, you yell, you go to lots of workshops, you blame. You do all of that, then you own it: it’s my terror. You just go around and around trying to make the terror go away, but it feels like it’s you. So it’s like, how do I extract the terror? No matter what I do, it is always activated. Maybe not as obvious, it keeps one separate, on the lookout: buying alarms, buying insurance, signing prenups. Causing you not to be able to relax and to keep peace away. Because that’s not safe.

Do we actually choose it before we come into our lives? Whatever, if it’s fear or…

Stuart: Everyone is given that which can ruin the life or bring one back to self. It depends how you use it.

Do we choose it like we incarnate, like okay, I’ll come in with that?

Stuart: Well, I would just look at everything as a concept and leave it alone because the mind is worried about its own existence. It’ll keep you busy, but it’s not worried about your existence. You know? It doesn’t care if you die as long as it continues. So great, we have reincarnation; drop dead.

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So if there were no humans at all, what would the mind do, something I’ve often pondered. Why bring children into the world at all? You know, it’s a celebration, yea!

Stuart: You have children?

No. I don’t want one either. I would not like to bring a child into this.

Stuart: That’s exactly how my kids feel.

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I didn’t know you had any. Poor children. The mind will find some other source to express itself, I believe.

Stuart: Why do I have children? I have children because I have children. That’s what happened.

I made a decision not to have children.

Stuart: So you say.

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Because of my own experience as a child.

Stuart: See, once you reach a certain point where the silence has pulled in so much erroneous belief in the reality of the dream, you can’t really sit still. You can’t sit still until you’ve absorbed all the illusion that’s keeping you constantly in motion in different scenarios believing it’s all real. As you’re still, you keep bringing it in. And at a certain point, the balance is different. You know yourself as the stillness, not only in your head, but in your body. Everything starts to change because you’re not being pulled like you’re the cart. You’re now in control because you’ve stayed with the stuff. In your case, there was a state of brutal existence, is what it sounds like, from the beginning: harsh,

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unbearable.

I don’t want any more worse than that.

Stuart: But it is worse than that. Your experience.

Not now.

Stuart: No, in the beginning. The decisions are made very early on your experience, what you see and feel. I would bet you didn’t like it here, on Earth.

A lot of the time it was hell. Somehow, here I am.

Stuart: So it goes through different stages of life is hell, I wish I was dead.

Yes, the only way out of it was death, I thought. It would have been a relief. I didn’t have the strength to do it.

Stuart: You were always being pushed down.

A part of me was dead, was killed off.

Stuart: So what you’re saying is you don’t believe it any more like you used to; therefore, there’s hope.

There’s a hereafter and everything. If I was good, I’d get some points, and I might pull through and it’s all gonna be okay or go to hell: either one. That’s completely mitigated now, in a way, you know. Still a few fragments of something or other there, but it’s not that, you know.

Stuart: There are remnants of it. That’s right. Remnants. And from the remnants, you would like to make the life more heaven-like. You’d like to manifest, you’d like to have a joyful, open life, but still the remnants of the hell-belief come in and say, no, I can’t. It won’t. All that stuff.

I have recognized that and I said leave it. That’s just part of my old self is, ignore it, you know.

Stuart: But ignoring it, it’s like it pops up and then it goes down, it comes up and then it goes down. So what I’m suggesting is you recognize the core knowing of life as hell and instead of running on away from it or ignoring it or letting it drop down again, to its comfortable mucky existence that we carry around, be with it. Look at that. Hell is making itself known.

Don’t react to it then.

Stuart: Yes. Allow it to be recognized for what it is.

Allow it to be in the feeling?

Stuart: Here it is. It stinks. It’s crappy. It’s hell. And the hell turns into the silence because it’s seen through.

And the silence is the grace, is it?

Stuart: Yes, it’s the grace. It doesn’t stop you anymore from being yourself, and it doesn’t pull you into another scenario of trying to disprove it or overcome it. It just is. You stop believing it. And that’s how you take away the guts of your belief of who you are from the inside. You stop identifying as the one that believes in futility.

In the exercise yesterday, like what we didn’t want to let go of, was it?

Stuart: We are attached to what we don’t want as much as we are attached to what we do want. Cause that’s how we know ourselves.

So Stuart, you could say the silence has something when looking at the hell, the silence is dismantling the hell. It’s dissolving the hell by looking at it. So it’s really very simple, very straightforward.

Stuart: It is. That’s a good word “dismantle.” But if you believe in the dark and it’s so thick and everybody else is doing it, lost in the Maya

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of this is reality, it’s called that, then the dismantling gets put on hold or forgotten, or started and stopped, or avoided.

Since our session yesterday, the terror just really came up, you know, just really. And then I kind of quickly tried to contain it afterwards. And it’s really just pulsating through me. And it just, it has a sense of just overwhelming. I just wanted to say that. That’s all.

Stuart: What are you doing about it?

I have come back to just acknowledging it and seeing how it is and asking it to leave. But it just seems to be, it’s very primal. And I suppose I’m just kind of recognizing that it, you know, as you say, it runs through every action in my life. Everything I do that at some level, this is what’s happening has been fed through from this place in some way. The difficult thing is just to stay with it.

Stuart: Are you doing the inquiry?

Not so much, no. It just seems to overwhelm a bit.

Stuart: Too much to be with?

Yeah, it feels almost too much to be with. It’s got all those elements of annihilation, humiliation, all of that comes with it.

Stuart: Which is the strongest?

Annihilation, I would think, yeah.

Stuart: And what does the body do to prevent you from being left by yourself alone, discarded? How does it try and prevent that?

It kind of goes into a kind of a panic that something has to be done. Someone has to do something. I somehow have to push it down, get a lid on it, or project out, you know, blame other people.

Stuart: For what?

It’s all nonsense, you know. For the sensation, for the discomfort, for the fear. The fear at the root of it. The terror.

Stuart: So you could say that what you’re trying to do is prevent people from getting rid of you, right? So that’s what keeps you separate. That’s what works to keep you separate.

Yeah, I finally found myself just withdrawing.

Stuart: Whatever you have to do in the moment to make sure that people don’t get rid of you. And then you’re isolated and you can’t exist because you can’t do it by yourself.

Yeah, there’s a strong sense of separation that comes with it, you know, this terrified being, so called terrified being.

Stuart: It’s helpless.

It’s absolutely helpless. It’s very familiar.

Stuart: It has no power. Just totally powerless and there’s nothing I can do to stop it. So it’s completely hopeless. And I allow it.

It’s like as well that I, you know, not being able to understand what’s happening. It’s very, it seems very young, you know, just not having a clue why this is happening or something. Not being able to understand language or not being able to be heard.

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Desperation or something.

Stuart: And totally powerless. And totally unsafe. So that’s quite a bind. And as you get older, that knowingness of yourself develops into an understanding. Me, powerless; afraid of being annihilated, but that’s not even the word then, not wanted, pushed away, left behind. Then as you get older, it materializes. It becomes the pattern of your life. You embellish it. And all the time you’re supposed to excel, learn, grow, have good character, be helpful, compassionate, you know, upstanding young man. But underneath is all this fear, I can’t, and I’m hopeless. And the whole thing is hopeless. And no matter how well you do, you can’t change the other.

That’s how the duality works in the life. It’s just a cycle of trying to overcome that which you believe you are. It keeps the whole thing going. And at a certain point, the truth hits something and there’s a crack that goes into it, a fissure, wait a minute, those glimpses that I’ve had of openness, maybe there’s something to that. And in the stillness, it expands. Your awareness of yourself opens up. And in that openness you can allow all of this whole history of terror to be met.

I can feel that happening.

Stuart: Right now.

Right now. It’s amazing, in one second there’s lots of terror in my stomach and now it’s just gone.

Stuart: So who do you think you are underneath the knowing of I am the self, I’ve sat in enough satsangs, I’ve read enough, God knows, but then you have a visceral knowing of it in your heart, you see. Then you can be with it more fully.

It’s the only way really, it seems. The only way.

I realize when I sat here this morning, I remembered I was looking out at my body in this kind of, but I didn’t get to where Dennis has got, I just got to underneath the rage, the sadness, you know, it’s like I’m struck why we can just get so lost.

Stuart: Well, because the attention is on protecting because I’m busy holding on for dear life. You know, the couple of incidents that you told me about are all incidents that come from the original terror. And there are more of them . And all of them solidify the belief that the terror is real, so you better protect yourself. I better hold on tight and just obey my boundaries because I can’t bear anymore. I can’t work any harder than I’m working to just be alive. So every time you’re sitting in the frozen holding on for dear life, what’s coming up is something that doesn’t want to be seen or felt. And by allowing yourself to be frozen and frightened, and here it is. So every time you don’t honor it, you open. You don’t have to be a certain way right now. And you definitely don’t have to hold on for dear life either. And that’s your experience in this moment. And that’s joy. It’s a very visceral thing: either I’m holding on or I’m not.

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You said a while ago that the terror can’t go to the peace, or something, because it’s too threatening. Something like that? The terror can’t know the peace because it’s too threatening?

Stuart: No, the terror is trying to protect itself as you know yourself. You, yourself as a person can’t extract the terror because you think you are it. You can’t get rid of it because you think it’s you as a person. It’s yours, isn’t it? Who’s experiencing the terror when it’s there? Me.

Well, my question is about going to the peace. It can’t go there because it’s too threatening.

Stuart: Cause it’s too big. It feels too big. The terror feels too big.

So it’s like you can’t bypass it like, you have to kind of go through it.

Stuart: That’s right. Otherwise, you suppress it or you drag it with you or you act it out.

But sometimes with inquiry there’s just a moving away from it like.

Stuart: Well, inquiry is like picking away at it. It’s dissecting it. We’re sitting in the silence very deeply, so you’re past the inquiry because you already know who you are. Right now you know who you are; you’re sitting in it, are you not? Aren’t you in the spaciousness right now?

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Stuart: Say yes.

(laughter)

Yes.

Stuart: You are the silence. Once you think your, everything you know is real. It’s a lot to let go of. But if you just stop, she fades away and your nature is revealed. So you start by knowing yourself, not by fixing yourself. I mean, it may start by looking like you’re fixing yourself, and all that is part of the karmic process of understanding what’s going on, but what really fixes the person is leaving the person. Anything that gets one out of the grip of a concept, perfect, anything that you’re chewing on is real, is not empty, it’s a belief. It’s holding the person as, you know, I am this. Notice it. Pause. It leaves by itself.

Catch-22.

Stuart: Yeah.

You were saying for the absolute to experience itself we are alive, so we can see ourselves in the reflection of everything. And then we also talk about, you know, letting go of the persona, there is this thing going on for me like, how do you let go and be this at the same time? It really feels like a Catch-22.

Stuart: You don’t hear me talk too much about letting go.

Or leaving the persona.

Stuart: Catching the persona and being still.

I get that.

Stuart: No, you don’t.

I thought I did.

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Stuart: You understand that. Your mind got it. But you didn’t get it cause you didn’t pause. The mind says, got it, now let’s go to the next problem. You didn’t stop. You see, I’m not asking you to believe this intellectually. You got it already. Now let it settle in. When you settle in, this stops. It’s not in control anymore and then the silence takes over.

I can be in the silence, and I can be this persona who is playing out this story. But to do the two together…

Stuart: There’s never the two together. The person thinks that by going to the silence then the absolute is going to change the life, fix the problems, you know, give it something that it wants. But what you said before was even more true. Every time you look out, you see yourself. So either you’re seeing yourself through what you believe is true as personal experience, you know, of all the belief systems and concepts and your reality as a person, you’re either seeing that come back to you, or you’re seeing emptiness come back to you. It’s always a projection of what you’re putting out.

Cause when I am in my terror, and it feels real, that is what I put out.

Stuart: And then you see it. Then you get snapped at. Then you get rejected. Then somebody cuts you off on the road. Then a salesperson is rude. You see it. You see the discordant behavior around you.

And is that all part of the absolute?

Stuart: It’s personal. The absolute is always perfect. And your beliefs cloud it, you see. And you move away from it and you say, no, this is true because this is what I am holding. This is how I am seeing the universe. This is my opinion about what’s real, and I am coming from that and acting it out. And I have my back to the absolute, even though I am the absolute and the absolute is loving me and guiding everything, I am saying, forget it, this is who I am. And then the world reflects it back to you. And you don’t like it, so maybe you do something about it. Somebody treats you rudely, so you then get into an argument with them. You manifest even a bigger, you know, problem out of it. You build up more of a position. But it’s all personal.

And the absolute.

Stuart: And the absolute is not perturbed, it’s not interested, it has nothing to do with the absolute.

But there’s nothing outside of the absolute because it’s the absolute.

Stuart: And what does that mean?

That even the stories that I make up and that I believe are part of the absolute.

Stuart: Okay, great. Now what?

That’s it.

Stuart: So there’s nothing you could do?

Exactly.

Stuart: Well, even though that’s true, act like there’s something you can do. Otherwise, you’re like a leaf in the wind.

I know. I feel like a leaf in the wind.

Stuart: So

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get a grip.

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On what?
A tree.
There is no tree.

Stuart: But who knows this?

I know nothing.

Stuart: But you just told me that it’s all the absolute.

Well, that’s that intellectual understanding. Maybe it is. I can’t see the line in, you know, there is this and then there is that, and then you believe this and then you do that, and then you go here and then you go there, and then it’s solved. It just doesn’t feel like it’s possible. It’s like everything is right in this absolute cause it’s the absolute. It’s beyond me. I’ve no words for it. I’ve no understanding of it. I have no…

Stuart: Are you in the experience of it? Are you abiding in it? Are you honoring it?

I’m really trying.

Stuart: How?

By being silent. By coming to satsang. I try all the time to be there because I don’t particularly want to have a hard time.

Stuart: Okay. And who has the hard time? And who’s experiencing the sadness?

The persona. It’s the story. It’s that Greek tragedy.

Stuart: Okay, whose tragedy is it?

Oh, it’s mine.

Stuart: One, two, three, four, five. Let’s start again. One, two, three, four, five. That’s what you can do. When the tragedy shows its face, when it feels that the absolute is giving you a Greek tragedy, notice it and be still. If you say it’s real, it is real. Then you enter it and the deer is on the run. Somebody’s gonna die.

So now the character is open and energy is leaving the character. The belief in the character is being dissolved into the absolute, as the absolute. No separation. Me, doing, going, none of that. But what are you aware of? Rooted to the spot.

You’re being done. There’s a state of being, not a state of acknowledging that you are this or that. This rootedness is self. This knowingness is self. This is who I am. This is not me entering another state, this is me—this is my existence; I am the absolute. I’ve identified with being a person knowing about the absolute, but I am the absolute. That’s the only shift. The person still lives their life whatever the karma says, but it doesn’t rule you anymore because you know who you are.

I kind of feel I have to write a little note saying I am the absolute and stick it on every piece of furniture in the house, like when you learn

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a new language.

(laughter)

Stuart: That’s right. And you should write it backwards and stick it on your forehead.

(laughter)

Stuart: And that’s why I always say to do the I-Am with the breath cause it brings you back without thought. You know, the inhale “I” and exhale “Am.” You could work all day long and do that. So it appears like gardening happens, and it appears like the person is doing it, and it appears like she’s totally involved, which she is, but who is she? She’s wide open. Gardening is beautiful. It doesn’t talk back.

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And as you say, it’s all in the seed; it’s out of my control.

Stuart: But you still have to give it what it needs and what it wants.

That’s nurturing it.

Stuart: Yeah, well, that’s the heart. So you are the heart. It’s the spark of the absolute. And she goes through her life without a thought in her pretty little head.

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I wish. There are moments.

You said there is no right way to be. There is no way to be. There is no right thing to say.

Stuart: So enter that.

Enter that and let go of the…

Stuart: Don’t let go. You see, all the knowledge comes when you’re still. It’s not as if you have to be aware of not being joyful or sorrow at any moment, or pleasure or displeasure, or doing or not doing. The knowingness comes when you stop the identification of the one that wants to know and the one that wants to do it right, like that. Oblivious to the idea of being a separate individual. See, anything that the individual knows, isn’t it. Even if it’s talking about it, it can’t land the person there. It’s doomed to failure because there’s nobody to do it. And then you can’t help but be present in every moment because your mind isn’t cluttered with fear or any kind of anxiety or judgment or chastising yourself or worrying about the future.

Or feeling other people who chastise me, which is a big feature in the person.

Stuart: Glad I mentioned it. That’s sad. I’m glad I mentioned it. What does that feel like when the character gets chastised?

Painful. Fearful. Wanting to hide, to disappear.

Stuart: So it’s humiliating.

Definitely humiliating, yes.

Stuart: And that feels very real. You see, the illusion is so very real that it is compelling. It grabs one

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at every turn, at every thought, at every glance. If somebody looks at you wrong, you take it personally because it’s your awareness from yourself, your personal self. Almost anything can stir up any kind of feeling. And you would do anything not to have that happen. But it’s holding it in mind at the same time. Fearing it and not wanting it to be discovered, so it’s alive and kicking.

It’s really giving, cheating life to what one fears most.

Stuart: That’s right. So the dissolving and the fluidity that I’m talking about all the time is the awareness of the person and how humiliating the sting is of being chastised, of being found wrong, humiliated. You know? It’s very strong. But the person doesn’t have to do anything about it when he is present in the truth of who he is. You can talk about it, but there’s no sting. And in the allowing it to surface, the self can Hoover it out of you, if you let it. That’s the dissolving. But if you think, as soon as you start to think, you become a solid individual again. It’s very hard for an individual to believe that all they have to do is be still and allow all the stuff to arise and leave. Instead of being the doer, you’re done.

You used the expression a bunch of times, allow yourself to be taken, it’s probably the best words can do to give a sense of what it’s about.

Stuart: Taking all the erroneous beliefs that the person holds onto for a million different reasons, but all coming down to being safe. There’s only safety in safety. But if you’re guarding for safety, you’re locked up.

Yes. That’s not what it takes.

Stuart: It takes stopping. It takes the intellectual understanding that peace comes before the problem maker. Peace is your nature. It’s not the result of resolution. You are the peace. You think you are the one trying to get out of it, the problem.

So insofar as one can put words on it, it is the case of allowing oneself to be taken rather than trying to fix the problem.

Stuart: Stop first. Be still. Ease up. Relax. Relax some more.

Feel kind of confusion about what road to take or what move to make or, you know, just in everyday life, like.

Stuart: You feel stuck?

Yeah.

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Stuart: So that means that whatever you do, you’re still locked up. Wherever you turn, doesn’t work. Is that what you’re saying?

Yeah.

Stuart: So you don’t know what to do. And you also feel that something needs to be done. Kind of desperate?

Yeah.

Stuart: And if you don’t do something, what will happen?

There’s consequences.

Stuart: What do you think will happen?

I know I need to take action.

Stuart: Yeah, but that’s not the answer to the question. You’re back to the beginning again. The loop is completed. I need to take action. I don’t know what to do. Nothing works. I’m stuck. If I don’t take action, if I don’t do something, what are you afraid will happen?

Someone will take action against me.

Stuart: And in this action against you, what will happen? What are you afraid of? Can you feel the fear?

Currently, yeah.

Stuart: Where is it?

Here up.

Stuart: Okay. Put your attention on it. See what it feels like. Be with it. Can you do that? David?

Yeah.

Stuart: What are you aware of?

Fear.

Stuart: And what are you doing about it? Trying to distance yourself from it?

I suppose, yeah.

Stuart: And that feels stuck, doesn’t it? So David doesn’t know what to do about this. He’s afraid and he can’t get out of the stuckness. So you’re kind of locked up, aren’t you? Do you remember when we were doing the breathing with the I-Am? Have you tried that?

Yeah.

Stuart: Are you doing it now?

Yeah.

Stuart: Good. Continue. Can you feel yourself being lifted out of your tightness?
Being open.

Yeah, I can feel my breathing going easier.

Stuart: Good. See if you can let that go even further, that stillness. What’s that?

It’s joy.

Stuart: Joy?

Yes.

Stuart: That’s great. So if you’re not locked up in trying to fix the problem, and you just leave yourself and the problem behind, into the openness and you just allow yourself to know that this is reality and not something that is appearing on reality, something that will change, it has a beginning, a middle,

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and an end, and it will pass. If you stay in the problem, it’ll become a bigger problem with all kinds of people and things and stuff. From here, it’s like a movie. And if you stay here, it’ll work itself out easily, one way or the other, but it won’t touch you because you are not it. It’s something that is happening to the guy named David. But you are joy. And the joy is forever. You know if you stay in this state and as the saying, “Let the self just take you,” you’d be empty in no time.

What is that exactly? Let the self just take you?

Stuart: Like this presence that’s here, it’s very strong. There’s nothing that the person can do in this presence. Can it? Is there anything that the person wants to do?

No.

Stuart: Is there anything the person needs to do?

No.

Stuart: Nothing. So if a person wants to realize their true nature, the truth of who they are, all one has to do is be still. And if you allow yourself to be very still, more still, as you can see right now, as you can feel, the body awareness disappears.

Yeah, I’ve experienced that before.

Stuart: So when people say you don’t exist, that’s the truth of it. You have the direct knowing that you don’t exist from experience.

I thought that was just a little trick that I do.

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You know, just saying, I’m not my body, I’m not my mind, I have no feet, I have no legs, and things like that in meditation. You don’t feel the body anymore.

Stuart: Right.

Actually, I suppose I’m talking to my mind.

Stuart: Well, you’re trying to convince yourself.

Yeah, and it works. Yes, at those times I’m actually out of, I’m just presence then actually, yeah. It’s not really a trick, I’m just presence then.

Stuart: I am presence. I am, period. You see, this presence is extremely strong. Even though your mind wants to keep pulling you back into the issue, it won’t let you. So you can just turn away from it. Go back to the joy. You see, joy brings more joy. And problems and trying to solve them bring more of the same.

This is some writing from my dear friend Kim:

I invite you, to leave it all behind. Find the one, the nonexisting, nameless one who is not captured by any thoughts or acts. Who can no longer stand to be enamored or

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disgusted with or lost in itself. Who is not here or there or anywhere. Whatever arises in our mind, is an idiot’s temptation, an idiot’s delight, an idiot’s contempt. Notice this and be still. Let it all do its thing without a thought of me. When the me is not honored anymore, the self reveals its enormity. When the identification is no longer with the me, there is no longer a me and there never was, and the self reveals its own true identity. When has the idiot ever had enough? Never. So leave the idiot to its own devices. Whatever arises in your body, in your surroundings, in your relationships, has absolutely nothing to do with what you are. I know. I have been an idiot for a thousand years, a million years, in every possible way. It’s a masterful dream. Very hard to leave behind. Completely mesmerizing, compelling, and utterly futile. May that split second of utter stillness appear very soon and erase any doubt, confusion, desire, forever. Realizing you never were anything else, always free, always nothing, only heart emerging from silent unending self. May you rest as that.

- Recorded at Satsang in Tipperary, Ireland in October 2009